TOTAL LOVE

The smell of the candles mix with the smell of the leather,
as i feel the warmth of my restraints
holding me firmly.
i feel the delicious pain aching in my breasts
the clamps pinching on my willing nipples.
The velvet darkness
that my beloved blindfold brings
cushions all and yet heightens my experience.
Masters hand caressing, then striking
i know not which i prefer
my senses soar, as i feel the pain
then i feel the pleasure,
my heart quickening, my pleasure building
i hear the swish before the pain,
followed by engulfing warmth
i feel the tightening of my skin
redness grows in uniform stripes,
the cane lands once more.
my breathing fast
my head spins
i feel my love juices rise.
i long for release
But not from my restraints
my sexual need
being fulfilled
i am a submissive whose needs are unique.
The need to submit
the need to serve,
and yet i need more.
Am i a masochist?
This word is so taboo
and yet the pain i submit to
takes me beyond the normal sexual pleasure.
Takes me to a place
a place so addictive
like a drug-induced state
i float.
my body is no longer part of me
i feel no pain
i feel no restrictions
all i feel is total pleasure.
TOTAL LOVE.

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Questioning Dreams

Why do i dream of being a slut
Of being used by others
But not having my own needs satisfied
Why does the thought of
Being unworthy
Fill me with such pride
Longing to feel pain
Given for another's pleasure
Received with grace

Why do i dream of being tied down
Not able to move a limb
Being control at the mercy of another
Why does this appeal?
Freeing my mind
Fulfilling my wants
Taking away my fears
There for another to take
Accepting with grace

Why do i dream of humiliation
Of being unworthy of love
Yet knowing I am loved and wanted
Degradation
Head bowed eyes cast down
Lowest of the low
Not worthy of you
But only in my mind
Humbled in grace

Why do i dream of punishment
For the slightest misdemeanour
Wanting to take pain disciplined by your hand
Fearing the pain
But longing for it
Fearing your wrath
But looking for it
Fear and pleasure entwine
Submitting with grace

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Open Door The door is almost closed But I can see through a crack I see her hanging from a chain Stripes across her back I hold my breath Don't want to be caught I watch the submissive As she is taught I hear the swish I see it falling As her body sways I can hear her calling What do I hear? From that open door But Master please Give me more They play as I watch Mesmerised by the scene Longing to be part Of what I have seen

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Lets Play

Blindfold on
Gag in mouth
Lets play

Wrists held tight
Ankles bound
Happy day

Feel the whip
Against the skin
Dancing gay

Passions building
Hearts racing
The D/s way

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Longing

Alone in a corner no one to play with me
Uncollared submissive
Longing to be the one who is owned
Belonging to another
There for their pleasure to be played with and loved
Looking around watching others
Who play and perform in the heat of the night
Carefully not wanting other to see
The longing that is deep inside of me
One day i will find the one who is right for me
Who will take their pleasure and give it back to me
Then alone in the corner
No more will i be

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	Blindfold
	my blindfold keeps me in the dark As Master makes me strip Across my eyes securely held The softness hides the whip
	The blackness as a velvet cloak. That cushions Masters blows The senses increase with the dark The pleasure and pain grows

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Bound In Love

Walking in the shadows
Not wanting others to see
That the things that i want
Make me different
When my body is stroked
i swim in anticipation
Not for the softness of your touch
But receiving the control
Feeling the delicious pain
That you give for your own pleasure
Yet in you taking me in your own way
You satisfy my yearnings
Sending me into ecstasy
Knowing that i please you
That i submit to what you desire
Gives me pleasure beyond the norm
Bonds cutting into my skin
As i strain again my ties
My body moving not from fear
Not to find freedom
But in euphoria
Drinking in your control
Tasting your gratification
Your pleasure taken from me
Given freely
Submitting to your will
For i am your submissive
All i do, i do for you
And thank you for accepting
The gift i give to you
The gift of love
The gift of my life
Now devoted to you
In accepting me as your own
In taking me to control
To guide to love
To mould to nurture
To make me the best i can
Master and submissive
Bound in love

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Submissive Bitch

The gentle touch as you lubricate my hole
The excitement building
I'm so turned on by the all that has happened
Now you are going to fuck my ass hole
You pull me into a doggie position
Commenting on me being your bitch
Taking your position
I feel your cock
I hold my breath knowing what is to come
Gently but firmly you move just enough
To let the head slide in
My nipples tingle
as they sway with the clamps in place
I hear the chains that hold my wrist together
Your force increases,
I breath slow
Not wanting to resist
Knowing the pain that that would bring
You pull my hair
My head falls back
Take it you bitch you say
As harder you push
And into my arse your cock disappears
Your movements are slow
But they are determined
My arse belongs to you
I feel the resistance in my arse
Crying out not to let you in
But I am your submissive
I have no right to say no
And so I let my muscles relax
I let my body go
And so you fuck my arse
Getting deeper with each thrust
I feel my passion growing
As my arse my Master fucks
Knowing the pleasure I give Him
Fulfilling His passion and lust

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This poem can be read as a whole or as two separate poems the bold being one and the non bold being another, the idea is to show the confusion of the submissive as she changes her life.

Playing

Kneeling before you, looking up into your eyes
All around me melts away
The touch of your hand, so gentle on my skin
The love in your eyes
Warming me from within.

Kneeling before you, looking up into your eyes
i wonder if i am worthy
The touch of your hand, so gentle on my skin
Is my love enough
Am i still what you want

As you bind me to a cross, soft leather on my wrists
My body tingles in anticipation
You move close to me, your breath on my neck
A gasp escapes form my lips
Longing for all you will give me

As you bind me to a cross, soft leather on my wrists
i tense and wonder why
You move close to me, your breath on my neck
i long for the pain of play
But confused, why you chose me

Yours hand rises and falls, building up the warmth
Delicious waves wash over me
As you change from spanking, to a rhythmic cane
My body gives in
Allowing the pain to take hold

Your hand rises and falls, building up the warmth
Pain washes into my confusion
As you change from spanking to a rhythmic cane
Why can i not take it
i am not worthy of your love

Stripes across my bottom, as each strike builds in strength
Melting into what you give
As you change the cane the heavy thud gives way to the sting
My body reacts with pleasure
As Master you once more send me fly.

Stripes across my bottom, as each strike builds in strength
The pain melting my doubts
As you change the cane the heavy thud gives was to the sting
My body reaches pleasure
As Master i at last submit to you.

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Crossing Over

My palms are sweating
My heart is beating fast
My stomach is knotted in fear
i stand looking across the road to
The doorway that leads me, to the place i long to go

i'm dressed vanilla
Hair and make-up done
Respectable to the eye
i stand looking across the road to
The smoked filled room, laughter enticing me in

i take a deep breath
Look left and then right
There's no turning back for me now
i start to walk across that road to
A new start a new life, no longer alone

Through glazed eyes i stare
As the door opens wide
The warm smile greets me
Did I do right to cross that road? to
A life of a submissive, learning life anew.

So many new names
So many new faces
But all smile back at me
In the room i crossed over to
A place with no blame, just understanding

i have found a place
i have found a life
i have found others like me
i crossed a road and found myself
in a world of acceptance, respect and love

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Encased In Love

I lay still and silent
I hear my heart beating
My blood racing through my veins
Encased in bondage
Held in love

I strain to hear a sound
Indicating you are there
But your movements are silent
I know your there
Or are you?

I feel your gentle touch
On my entombed body
Sending shock waves though my soul
You are so close
And yet so far

Has it been an hour
Or is it just a minute
Time no longer has meaning
Entombed in love
Held by you

Is there still a world?
Beyond the one I am in
Or has it all melted away
Silent calmness
Engulfing me

Tranquillity within
Taking hold of my mind
My body no longer part of me
Alone within
Total freedom

Swimming in silence
Held in bondage
My Master by my side
Taking me there
Freeing my mind

I lay still and silent
I hear my heart beating
My blood racing through my veins
Encased in bondage
Held in love

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