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As they lived within their respective unhappy marrages,
grabbing every opportunity to meet up or chat on the telephone
or via the Internet, they both knew that they were living
a lie and that one day they would have to hurt so many others. The poem "If" was written early in their struggle as submissive tried to understand her own feelings.
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IfIf I look to youI turn from him If I touch your heart I cut his in two If I walk with you I walk away from him If I lay with you I should not with him If I love you I can't love him
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During this time submissives behaviour put the relationship in jeopardy, the following two
poems were written at this time.
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Turn Back TimeIf i could turn back timeWould i tell You? i think the answer is no i'd lie and cheat Do anything To stop You letting me go If i could turn back time Would i change things? i think the answer is yes i'd keep you close And never stray Not put my collar to test i can't turn back time Can't change what's done The future is not as it should i need Your strength help and love Your collar to wear for good |
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i beg of YouIf i ask for another chanceWould You give it? If i pleaded for Your forgiveness Would You grant it? If i grovel on bended knees Would it help me? If i beg for Your collar back Would You fit it? i ask, i plead, i grovel, i beg of You |
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Thankfully with a lot of talking Master and submissive over came these
problems. In the next section "The Baggage" there are some of the poems that submissive wrote
at this time to help Master understand her thoughts and feelings. There was no questioning their love for each other, but until this time in their lives they had both been faithful within any relationships they had been in. This was a very difficult time for they were breaking all their own rules on life, but they could not help it. Was it so wrong to be in love? This next poem makes it sound as if submissive is living alone, but this was not the case, she was living within her unhappy marrage. The poem was a reflection of the longing to be with the man she loved, yet knowing he was not free to be with her. It was a reflection of the guilt yet strong emotional love she felt at the time. The poem "One Day" was written by submissive for her Master as they both struggle with the final decision.
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I sit aloneYour with her, I sit alone,You talk to her, I listen to the silence She lives with you, I feel so far away You wear her ring, my hand is bare, She has your children, I have only the longing Does she know you well, do I know you better? She fights for you, have I the right to fight back? But I love you, does she feel as I do? You are in my heart, are you in hers? I long for you touch, yet she moves from you, I would give up all for you, would she do the same? I dream of you day and night, are you ever in her dreams? I know you love me, but is this going to be enough? She is your wife, can I expect you to give her up? |
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One dayThe freedom you are seekingThe longing for love you have The need to be in my arms But the family pulls you back The way forward you must go The ties that need to be cut The life you want to be yours But the family pulls you back One day you will get what your seeking One day you will be held in my arms One day you will feel my love for you One day their pulling will stop |
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The next section though not telling part of their journey, shows the emotional state that submissive was in at the time when they met, and the problems that she needed to overcome.
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