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We all carry the emotional baggage of our past, the older we get the more we seem to carry. Some are able to cast off this baggage and continue fresh. Others carry the emotional baggage with them, not able to move on. submissive carried a great deal of emotional problems when she met Master.

It was not easy for submissive to show her feelings, to explain why she acted the way she did. Master was very understanding and paitient with her, it was through her poems she was able to show him the side of her past that she was not at that time able to talk openly about.

I S O L A T I O N

Trapped within these four walls
With in this house I stay
Contact limited by you
I s o l a t i o n

People come and go
Chatter all around me
Involvement I have none
I s o l a t i o n

Held in suspension
Emotions, none for me
My views not important
I s o l a t i o n

External involvement
Kept well beyond my reach
Controlling my input
I s o l a t i o n

Do I know the feeling
Of others close to me
Of two way involvement
I s o l a t i o n

My opinion's valid
A mind to share I have
So why keep me in total
I S O L A T I O N

Forbidden tears

Tears are not wanted
Tears are not allowed
Tears here mean nothing
Tears are for weakness
Tears do not help this
Tears have no meaning
Tears not permitted
Tears stop them right now

I cry my tears inwardly
I cry until my heart breaks
I cry for all that I'm missing
But tears do not fall from my eyes

This next poem told Master so much about the woman He had fallen in love with. It is one of submissives best poems but one that both Master and submissive find hard to read.

Caged Heart

The cage was locked a long time ago,
the key thrown into the bottomless pit

My feelings, emotions all that was in my heart,
was not allowed to be seen

For I hid my feelings I did not show my emotions,
these things were not allowed

For my life was there for others, I nurtured I cared for,
I was strong when others needed.

The cage had a force field to stop others getting close,
to stop them seeing what was within.

Only the reflection of a smile was allowed to escape,
to be seen by others

Over the cage, over the force field, a body was formed,
with that smile on its face

And so the life of a caged heart continued,
to give to others without being seen

As time went by the cage crushed the heart,
until it no longer felt, was numb and cold.

The force field, keeping all out suffocated all that was within,
not letting it see the sun.

And so I lived for others, they saw the smile,
but not me for the cage was strong.

I was strong when others needed, giving them the support
when times were hard

As they dragged my strength from me, from that cage I lived within,
so I emptied.

The cage became much smaller as the force field crushing hard,
the heart within dying.

Someone touched me, I don't know how,
but they reached beyond the force field.

Letting some warmth reach that heart,
that heart trapped within the cage so cold.

The heart wanted more, longing for the warmth,
longing for the freedom.

From a distance that hand, that had reached within that force field,
started stroking it away.

As the force field died, I started to live,
to feel to love, to grow

I felt emotions that I did not know, I did not understand,
as the cage had crushed them so long ago.

The hand reached in and saw the heart,
it held it, and kissed it with love

And so my heart started beating, loving the hand that had freed it,
wanting so much more

But the hand needed answers,
needed the love form the heart within,

The heart, my heart became frightened,
of the future free from the cage

How could the cage let this in, my safety net was going,
fear came with the warmth.

I longed for the opening, I long for it still,
but the fear of being naked, letting other see.

For I was caged so long ago,
crushed, controlled but not loved.

Showing what is in my heart,
letting it escape form the cage is hard.

For I have been entrapped for so long,
will you take the time to reach within.

The force field has now dissolved, your strength wiping it clear,
helping the sun to shine once more.

But the cage has not been opened, the key has not been found,
in the pit it still remains

Yet the heart within the cage is happy,
it feels your love your warmth,

At times I can not stop my emotions flowing out of the bars,
showing what is within

Showing the emotions the love the feelings,
that were crushed so long ago

The cage is my safety, but not from you,
you walk through the bars to my heart

I am not ready to let all in, I may never get that far,
but that cage had no defence from you

you stroked away the force field,
you let the sun shine through
you took the caged heart and love it
you held me close to you
you walk through my bars of protection
to get so close to me
you hold me in every way
you are more than a Master to me.

Master has asked does this poem still apply after the years they have been together.

Even after the years of guidance and love submissive still can not open up to others, even her closest friends know little of the real person. They get to see only the part of submissive that she is happy to show.

The next section deals with "The Final Step" the decision to be together was easy, but what they needed to do to accomplish this was horrendous.
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